Sunday, February 22, 2009

To Molly Johannah, on her first birthday

Dear Molly Jo,

I watched you today, toddling around the house in your pink overalls, hair curling softly around your ears, and I couldn't believe that our family was once without you. How dreary the days must have been without your crooked smile and your belly laughs!

One year ago, I woke up at 10:30 p.m. and knew that my water had broken. I stood in the bathroom and called your Oma to come stay with Frankie. When she asked me how I was doing, I burst into tears, afraid because I couldn't imagine how I could love another child as much as I loved your sister. Just a few hours later, I was afraid again; this time because I worried I might love you more.

It has been pure joy to be your mother this year. The best time of my day is when I hold you close and start to sing to you and you rest your head against my shoulder, relax into me and start to absently play with my hair. When I am old and gray and sight and sound are lost to me, I will remember the sweetness of your little body against me and be glad.

I love your toothy smile and your bright blue eyes. I love how you point with your middle finger and drop your socks over the rail of the crib so there is a tiny pile of weency pink pairs next to the wall. I love that you slept through a whole bath when you were two weeks old, even though Frankie was splashing in it with you. I love how you demand to sit on my lap when I play the piano. I love how you don't let Frankie intimidate you and keep on coming after her toys. I love how you squeal and crawl as fast as you can when I come in the room.

I am so grateful to God that He allowed me the privilege of being your mother. I hope you will know Him and love Him and follow Him all the days of your life.

I love you unspeakably, Molly Johannah Kendziera.


susanswenton said...

I say ditto.

Crystal said...

I am crying, you are an amazing mom!! What sweet thoughts about your second daughter. God is so good to us to bless us with children. Imagine his love for us, if we can love like that and we are sinners. He must love us so deeply, each one of us!! Molly you are such a sweetheart and a beauty, we love you~ The Bunch